Saturday, 13 April 2013

Stepping Out

So here I am, prompted by a sad and lonely weekend, stepping out into the cyber world as a person with bipolar. I've felt particularly alone and lonely this weekend and I can't quite put my finger on why. I'm usually quite content being alone, even though I know it's not much good for me. Most of the time I have no choice in the matter, I don't really have any family and the handful of friends I have are dealing with mental health issues as well so when the weekend comes around it's usually surviving, recovering from the week and preparing for the next one, rather than socialising on everyone's mind.

I've never been good with making or keeping friends. I've just never understood why people would want to spend time with me. I feel awkward in social situations and it probably shows. Now that I'm taking bipolar meds I'm kinda flat and a bit grumpy too so that doesn't help either.

So that's what stands out today about life with bipolar. I feel very sad and alone. 

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